Living in Retrospect

Mormon Sexual Repression: Masturbation & Wasted Intelligence

This is my story of Mormon sexual repression, or in other words, how I squandered my intelligence for a decade of self-loathing. Forgive the healthy...

Food as Medicine & Daily DIY Health Drinks

A brief discussion of my current food journey, including my quest to create daily DIY health drinks. A couple of years ago, I realized my attitude...

Life Update + On The Other Side

Once again, it's been a substantial amount of time since I last updated this blog, and once again I feel that familiar urge to share my words with...

Save Money on Groceries: The Ultimate Guide + Cheap Meal Plan for Two

No matter the reason you need to save money on groceries, I am here to help! The following are all of my best tips to save money on groceries, and...

I Might Have COVID-19, But I’m Not Important Enough For A Test

And this is why you can’t trust the numbers. (In other words, yes, it’s in your community.) “You might have COVID-19.” That’s what the doctor said...

The Residual Trauma of Stalking

The real harm from stalking is not in the momentary fear, but in the lifelong doubt to your safety and security. Read on to learn about my...

5 Things To Do Instead of Writing Happy Birthday on my Newsfeed

I appreciate the sentiment, but these things are just as fast — and will actually provide real value in my life. I don’t want to sound ungrateful....

Melancholy End (Poem)

The end shifted in with the night breeze-shimmering on the tiny caps of the waves;they crashed with the sound of summerbut the air tasted like the...

How to Survive an Existential Crisis (And Why Survival Isn’t Enough)

If you spend any time at all analyzing yourself, your behaviors, and your life, an existential crisis is practically inevitable. If you are...

Becoming Homeless: A Story of Millennial Homelessness

I’m embarrassed as hell to even write this post, because let’s be honest… when I imagine a homeless person, I’m just as judgmental as the rest of...

I Lost My Voice, And Then I Lost Myself.

I've been a writer my entire life; I've always known that sharing my story was my calling. My primary goal in life? To live a life worthy of a...

I’m 30. And I’m No Longer The Same Woman.

This post has been sitting as a draft in my archive for almost a year. It is one of several that I just couldn't bring myself to publish - but now...

Living With PTSD is Hell

It's been a literal hell of a year. I won't go into the specifics of all of the things that have happened because that's enough to fill up an ENTIRE...

Incredible Effect of CBD Oil on Pain

I've talked about CBD oil and how it can be an effective treatment for depression, but now it's time to look at the incredible effect of CBD oil on...

3 Effects of Depression in Brain & Body | How to Organically Treat Depression

I've opened up a lot lately about my struggle with depression, and one of my most popular old posts is about divorce anxiety. Some people don't...

What Does Dissociation Feel Like? (To Me)

What does dissociation feel like? For me, it feels like paralysis, falling asleep, sinking into a deep bath, and emptiness, but it is different for...

Finding Freedom in Betrayal

A tiny ode to the fetters of obligation — shorn. Oh, to be justified in detachment, meanness. There’s freedom in it, but it tastes bitter anyway,...

Depression Is Ruining My Life.

Today I’m going to open up about something terrifying – something I’d really rather not share online. But I think that sharing is part of my healing...

We Got Married On A Thursday — At 10:30 AM

If you wait for the right time, you will wait forever. It was a quiet ceremony in an empty courtroom, a formalization of feelings already felt and...

Can Depression & Dissociation Be a Catalyst for Art?

What do you think? Can dissociation fuel creativity? Can depression and dissociation be a catalyst for art? At least in my life, dissociation and...

Grocery Shop For The Entire Month (Mostly)

You probably go to the grocery store multiple times throughout the month. Usually you go because you need a particular item you ran out of, but...

10 Tips for a Successful Road Trip

Planning a road trip can be a lot of work. Follow these 10 tips for a successful road trip (half for planning and half for playing) for a great road trip.