LIVING IN RETROSPECT
Podcasts by Ella Boleynn (I’m Finally Ready to Speak)
Skip the story and jump straight to links for the three new podcasts by Ella Boleynn. I spent 8 years hibernating from this blog and the public eye...
An Open Letter To The Primary Kids I Taught Who Are Now Grown
This open letter to the primary kids I taught who are now grown was featured in an episode of sEXyMOfo: Deconstructing Mormonism, Healing Religious...
Bear Folklore + A Reading of Snow-White & Rose-Red
I was raised with no concept of large animals you needed to fear. I never really considered the bear; they only seemed to exist in movies, zoos, and...
Devotional Cooking
Cooking is dead, and our souls are malnourished. We have been severed from the systems that nourish our bodies and souls. Not only does this...
How My Mormon Ex-Husband’s Sex Scandal Saved Me
It's been 8 years since my Mormon ex-husband's sex scandal shook up my world and this blog. I've come a long way since I first wrote I love him. I...
How to Overcome Divorce Anxiety
One of my most popular posts is my personal story about how to overcome divorce anxiety*. That story talks about what a profound impact the...
Self-Healing Through Travel: How Travel Heals Us
Self-healing through travel is one of the most human things we can do. Learn how traveling heals us and start your own journey.
Travel Tips for Living the Traveler’s Life
Regardless of whether you are seeking travel tips on how to choose a travel destination, or how to get the most out of a travel experience, these are my best travel tips.
What is Intuitive Movement? (Tips & Techniques)
What is intuitive movement? Read on to learn how I moved intuitively as a child and then forgot how until a drunken night of dancing helped me...
Hill Dreams
I keep dreaming of hills Big hills. They rise out of flat land, a tower of road I have to climb. The call beyond the crest changes. At times, it...
Still Water
The water is still today. It's one of those days when the sun and breeze cancel each other out, and you forget that you need sunblock. Soft spring...
Longing
You never long to want or want to long. You only want to be wanted for so long that your bones crack into dust like gray grindings of the peppercorn.
Isolation
I hear the lonesome wind come in against the moored boats' bones as I load the warm laundry into the van. A dog tethers a woman across the street....
IceFlow
Nature doesn't die when the snow falls like hushed ash. It sleeps. All that remains, the stems and stalks and seed clusters that hint of sprouts and...
Mushroom-Head
I dreamed there were mushrooms growing from your head once. I woke and wondered, and it scared me. But then I tasted mushrooms. Truly. Felt them...
Night Church
The Devil comes in the nighttime, but the angels come beside. Free under cover of darkness, the fallen and risen abide. Together, they dance in the...
We Will Await Her
The year scurries on like black squirrels in red leaves. Stillness comes in her end, but we will await her. Even as we scamper - as we scatter - as...
Cycle Dance
There is blood on the Samhain and Aurora brings her in painted in the colors of the fallen and the children. Ring around the rosy, a pocket full of...
A Muddy Prayer
We've been battered for millenia, maladaptive traits to live while the things that made us human from the world have been hid. In the gardens, on...
I Lay My Body Down…
I lay my body down each night - the only peace I know. No matter where or what I fight, I never stand alone. Bruised and battered, weary, worn we...
vivre
un homage à l'homme qui prends vie qui chantequi danse il n'a pas de peurvivre pour il sais qu'il etait créépour vivre c'est la vievivre bois,...
Mormon Sexual Repression: Masturbation & Wasted Intelligence
This is my story of Mormon sexual repression, or in other words, how I squandered my intelligence for a decade of self-loathing. Forgive the healthy...
Food as Medicine
A brief discussion of my current food journey, wherein I have discovered that treating food as medicine is the key to a happy and healthy life. A...
Life Update + On The Other Side
Once again, it's been a substantial amount of time since I last updated this blog, and once again I feel that familiar urge to share my words with...